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#1 I was often absent from school, and as a result became something of a phantom to my classmates and teachers. I was born in 1961 in La Mesa, California. My parents divorced when I was four years old, and my father became some sort of shadowy figure.

#2 I have memories of a benign man smoking a pipe, reading the newspaper, and calling me over to kiss him good night. I know that people under the influence are capable of unspeakably bad behavior, but I choose to believe that my father was not an evil man.

#3 I grew up with the fear of being sent to live with my father if I misbehaved. My father was a monster, but he was also a weapon used against me by my mother to keep me in line. I had no fear because I'd grown accustomed to being knocked around in school.

#4 I was a lonely kid, and I made up my own universe to escape into. I played with a lot of plastic models, and my world was the safest place I could find. I was a survivor, and I endured some shit.